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sad again why ah cuz nw i really noe the real reason why he cant with me.since we first time break tat time i really cant accept tis 实事.maybe me really so bu she de him tat time me really don wan break always ask myself why leave me am i do wrong le.afterthat i think ya cuz since i really so less pei him and always fa bi qi to him nia doesn't 理他的感受.tat time i really so regret why i no appreciate u at all i really hate myself.after 1 week break with him i tot me feel more ok le but how noe suddenly lost the hp and the not my oso is him 1 really make me so down why so unlucky ah i cant qian him anymore le cuz i not his gf le how i should do buy the hp return him back ma i really wan do tat but i really don hv money le i really no idea d.but after tis i call him say sorry i lost ur hp but he no blame me and say 2moro take me go to do my ic oso cuz my ic oso lost d.then 2moro he really bring me go to do ic do my digi card but tat day cant do my ic oso cuz i no enough money he wan borrow me money i really don 1 to take so cuz i really don 1 qian him le .and then tat day he bring me go out oso after that he call his fren ask for me got hp can borrow to me use.but how noe tat day his fren go to hospital cuz got injured.so that i oso follow him go to find them.then at the nite got 1 girl come to see his fren and tat girl oso his fren and then tat time he like so happy tell me who is her and tat time feel tat girl so pretty and i really feel unhappy cuz i feel tat he like interest her.tat nite i really wan to cry and sad cuz i see he and her chatting so happy and me like a stupid gal stand at there.but i really no blame him cuz i really no tis layak to blame him who ask me do wrong 1 regret oso no use.then got 1 day i oso go out with him cuz wan to borrow hp from his fren.after this we like no contact le i no blame him i noe he nit a time oso cuz we oso not a couple le .tat time i really still cant 4get him and very miss him .after this i do wrong thing le do the thing cant let ppl 4give oso .after 2 week i sms his fren tat he borrow hp for me 1 and then i wan to say thank u to him cuz he borrow me hp.and then i noe they r good fren so i really wan to noe hw about my ex bf .so sms try to ask him,but i oso don noe i do tat wrong way d make me now cant return back oso le then after 1 week i hv go out with his fren cuz i think juz a fren nvm can go out together and then he oso got tell me something about my ex bf .yuan lai since my ex bf got tell him tat he early doesn't love me le tat time i really feel so sad but i din cry cuz i noe pass d.tat time i really like wan give up then got 1 day his fren tell he doesn't love me oso he juz love a girl since he like 1 tat time i really feel so sad and cry why he wan to lie me de gang qing am i really so bad for him ma i really wan to die tat time .after tis i try to together with his fren le tat time i really dono he lie me.then after few day, my ex bf call me he ask me isit with him le i say yes tat time he really so angry and feel sad cuz i really hurt him so much le i oso dono wat i doing le i really dono de i alreally like no point le .after tis my ex bf together with me back cuz he really love me and don wan me kena his fren tipu.when we together back tat time i really so happy yuan lai he love me so much and then we oso say nit to appreciate both each other .but at last i so din be a good gf still like wan quarrel with him .i really don 1 do tat cuz i see a girl always sms him i really don like and i so scare he will leave me again but first time break cuz he really feel he not suit for me and scare cant give me xin fu .but i really don care cuz i really love u if in future really so xin ku i oso will not blame u de cuz i really love.but i love him de way wrong d he always say clearly with say tat he don like tis girl oso but i always angry him sms her but why i don think since i hurt him more serious ah me with his fren b4 so cheap me damn cheap so tat now he cant with me cuz he really so xin ku when see me then will make his mind think tat i with him b4 so tat he cant continue with me le .i really so regret but regret oso no use le since i really hurt him too much le wan ni bu oso cant le 做错了就是做错了再也不能回头了sry hurt u so much i really no blame u cuz tis is my fault sry i love u i noe u will find a gf better than me thousand times.