haiz.....so boring and unhappy reli unhappy nw why he still cant accept me ah me reli so bad ma yuan lai 1 ppl de heart so fast can change de my heart reli pain nw i got wat prob oso cant tell ppl i reli not dare to tell cyz they scold me and will say me stupid i reli feel myself so stupid i oso dono why i become like tat d like not me at all i reli don 1 alive le reli no meaning i juz wan simple only juz wan he will love me and with me why he stilll so mind me ah why wor yuan lai since u oso lie me de say wat love me ah all is bullshit bullshit!!!!!!treat me good for wat ah u noe i wan de thing not tis my heart reli pain so pain say wat bu she de baby bullshit bullshit!!!!lie nia i always got think of u ,but u tot me no think of u ma juz noe say u got think for me ya meh got meh u juz noe think me bad thing why don think i good thing ah nothing for u isit????lie lie!!!

now i still happy ma? i oso dono now my heart pain like first time he wan break with me now oso break second time le still feeel so hurt my heart reli so pain ,pain until i reli cant alive le i reli wan die am i so stupid still waiting for wat ah still waiting him love me again ma????why i always cant get wat i wan ah????am i reli too bad why??????god can u tell me ma???i reli no idea d nw my heart reli so pain ......i think i reli no chance le yuan lai he reli don like me de why u always lie me ah????since say wat love all oso lie de ma u so se de leave me alone ma?????din u feel hurting me ma wat oso is u say and u rite only and me always wrong de ma???????like tat i die le return all the thing for u ok ma???????i die le u will not feel me so ma fang le isit???me isit for u i very bad bad bad de girl ma???????not good at all isit?????and too ugly???too stupid??????i think u reli don love me oso cuz i hv tis disadvanatge u juz leave me isit?????????my heart still pain like a stupid alive oso not use..

unhappy

finally finish my project and presentation d quite feel good cuz finish d so fast 3 years pass d lol .but can say tat not so happy dono why maybe tis thing not really tat i wan .i oso dono wat i wan dono hw to happy d no diretion d haiz...like all thing over d.now wan find a job to work but dono can get ma hope can get a job i don 1 study d now i really wan give up all thing really like cant 4get since i do de wrong thing so susah nia..why be human no meaning de like no hoping since de me go where d like no more happy le where r u now pei pei r u lost d no u anymore ma .like become not me le like become too weak d am i still love him ma ????ya still got but i noe no chance d why i still so miss him ah he still got love me ma??maybe no d i think now he love other girl d now me for him is nth le juz for him is a hurt only hw he will remember and love me leh haiz...nw wat i nit to do ah i really dono ......

lonely

2day de mood like happy,worry ,and sad .dono why maybe worry about the fyp haiz dono can pass anot like too easy d haiz really kek sim din learn programming so good haiz regret oso no use.why i always make my life only got tis word regret only.now i say so much oso no use pass d wan turn back oso too late d.Really feel sad me like not suitable be human. HAiz really so miss him although still got saw him but oso dono ohw his feeling i really dono .maybe he really don love me anymore saw me oso like nothing.ya i for him juz nothing ,nothing at all..wan presentation d rally so nervous and exam result will come out soon really so worry .worry will fail .since got him ,still hv his guan xin and ai wei me now no more le really feel so lonely...

valentine's day

yesterday is valentine's day oh i think many couple oso will celebrate and play so happy oh.i remember tat last year how my bf and me celebrate oh .tat day we go to eating then we got saw one girl sell flower lo then he say he wan buy flower for me but me really feel shy say no need la actually i really wan de but i scare expensive oso lo cuz few day ago he juz tret me go to langkawi travel and use so many money oso lo cuz tat time he juz work as part time .But tat time he still wan buy for me lo tat time me really so happy i can feel tat he really so love me but now i can feel tat he like don love me anymore le really feel so sad juz can blame myself dono be good gf and fu chu too late le sometime i will think if he really give me the last chance i really do my best de but he really don 1 give me chance le maybe me juz for him is a hurt only and nothing good for him really feel sad.Yesterday go to paradise beach do the single party do the bbq at there with my college fren.ya can say all ppl r single still got ppl pei me but my heart still so pain dono why really feel bu shu fu then see so many couple at celebrate at there oso really so sweet and me juz at there like wan cry out .tat time i think if me and him still together then 2day we will celebrate so happy oso de but no chance anymore maybe im no tis luck too cant celebrate for tis year only.yesterday i really so miss him and i think dono he got miss me oso ma..but i think no le cuz i din do 1 thing make him happy oso all only is da hurt really so bad for him all over d nothing can liu lian le haiz..why i still think tis ah ya i still cant 4get him really cant i oso dono why i will become like tat maybe i really love him d but din treat him good oso not so love him.now actually i oso dono how like no point d really so regret...hope can faster become well....

sad.....

2day really unhappy and totally cant study oso no mood at all bad ....wan exam le but still no mood study dono hw. tis few day sometime oso cant eat so much le my heart really so pain and broken le. nw i still cant 4get it i really miss him since he say gv me chance me really so happy but nw i dono wat happen he like don 1 le really feel sad i really wan to fu chu on tis time cuz i really don 1 regret when i old d i really don 1 cuz nw i love u so i wan appreciate i reall don 1 lost u i hope u accept my yao qiu i wan do tat cuz since always is u fu chu and tis time turn to me fu chu ok ma i really hope i will be a good gf and appreciate u sometime i will think tat isit is my bao ying ah snce din treat u good then nw juz noe late le really feel sad tis few day my heart always pain really xin ku when i noe u still not sure and still not really wan see me always i feel sad but i not blame u i juz blame myself , so tat tis time i really don 1 give up really don 1 cuz i love u...

对不起

sad again why ah cuz nw i really noe the real reason why he cant with me.since we first time break tat time i really cant accept tis 实事.maybe me really so bu she de him tat time me really don wan break always ask myself why leave me am i do wrong le.afterthat i think ya cuz since i really so less pei him and always fa bi qi to him nia doesn't 理他的感受.tat time i really so regret why i no appreciate u at all i really hate myself.after 1 week break with him i tot me feel more ok le but how noe suddenly lost the hp and the not my oso is him 1 really make me so down why so unlucky ah i cant qian him anymore le cuz i not his gf le how i should do buy the hp return him back ma i really wan do tat but i really don hv money le i really no idea d.but after tis i call him say sorry i lost ur hp but he no blame me and say 2moro take me go to do my ic oso cuz my ic oso lost d.then 2moro he really bring me go to do ic do my digi card but tat day cant do my ic oso cuz i no enough money he wan borrow me money i really don 1 to take so cuz i really don 1 qian him le .and then tat day he bring me go out oso after that he call his fren ask for me got hp can borrow to me use.but how noe tat day his fren go to hospital cuz got injured.so that i oso follow him go to find them.then at the nite got 1 girl come to see his fren and tat girl oso his fren and then tat time he like so happy tell me who is her and tat time feel tat girl so pretty and i really feel unhappy cuz i feel tat he like interest her.tat nite i really wan to cry and sad cuz i see he and her chatting so happy and me like a stupid gal stand at there.but i really no blame him cuz i really no tis layak to blame him who ask me do wrong 1 regret oso no use.then got 1 day i oso go out with him cuz wan to borrow hp from his fren.after this we like no contact le i no blame him i noe he nit a time oso cuz we oso not a couple le .tat time i really still cant 4get him and very miss him .after this i do wrong thing le do the thing cant let ppl 4give oso .after 2 week i sms his fren tat he borrow hp for me 1 and then i wan to say thank u to him cuz he borrow me hp.and then i noe they r good fren so i really wan to noe hw about my ex bf .so sms try to ask him,but i oso don noe i do tat wrong way d make me now cant return back oso le then after 1 week i hv go out with his fren cuz i think juz a fren nvm can go out together and then he oso got tell me something about my ex bf .yuan lai since my ex bf got tell him tat he early doesn't love me le tat time i really feel so sad but i din cry cuz i noe pass d.tat time i really like wan give up then got 1 day his fren tell he doesn't love me oso he juz love a girl since he like 1 tat time i really feel so sad and cry why he wan to lie me de gang qing am i really so bad for him ma i really wan to die tat time .after tis i try to together with his fren le tat time i really dono he lie me.then after few day, my ex bf call me he ask me isit with him le i say yes tat time he really so angry and feel sad cuz i really hurt him so much le i oso dono wat i doing le i really dono de i alreally like no point le .after tis my ex bf together with me back cuz he really love me and don wan me kena his fren tipu.when we together back tat time i really so happy yuan lai he love me so much and then we oso say nit to appreciate both each other .but at last i so din be a good gf still like wan quarrel with him .i really don 1 do tat cuz i see a girl always sms him i really don like and i so scare he will leave me again but first time break cuz he really feel he not suit for me and scare cant give me xin fu .but i really don care cuz i really love u if in future really so xin ku i oso will not blame u de cuz i really love.but i love him de way wrong d he always say clearly with say tat he don like tis girl oso but i always angry him sms her but why i don think since i hurt him more serious ah me with his fren b4 so cheap me damn cheap so tat now he cant with me cuz he really so xin ku when see me then will make his mind think tat i with him b4 so tat he cant continue with me le .i really so regret but regret oso no use le since i really hurt him too much le wan ni bu oso cant le 做错了就是做错了再也不能回头了sry hurt u so much i really no blame u cuz tis is my fault sry i love u i noe u will find a gf better than me thousand times.

想念

erm...after cny got exam le haiz so bad cny oso nit to study haha but nvm la faster finish exam le can faster finish the fyp oso haha. tis few day my mood become more better le will not always cry haha good oso don think too much .but still got a bit bu she de and sometime alone tat time will feel so lonely lo cuz not him pei me le . nvm la now juz a beginning only man man lai will ok lo .but sometime i still will miss him when we together tat time although juz simple go through but for me really a good memories oso but for him i dono good anot haha maybe he will feel sad oso cuz i hurt him so much lol.i still remember since he take me go to langkawi with his fren oso tat time really for me so happy cuz i oso don think he will take me go to travel haha feel so romantic haha cuz tat time oso near valentine day le and then after go home he give me chocolate he buy from langkawi de haha i oso dono yuan lai he buy for me de so happy i really feel so sweet to me haha maybe tis my first time pa tor but really so good for me hehe then valentine day he oso give me flower tis is he first time buy for me and he oso first time buy flower and tats girl is me wakaka . then we oso got few pic at langkawi oh but i din save haiz so bad ben lai me got 1 but i scare my bro will take my hp and see cuz they still dono i hv a bf so i delete it so bad haha but i think he still got save it lol.sometime i so miss him cuz he really treat me so good always give me wat he hv a good thing. im so sorry to him cuz since sometime he only treat me only 1 thing no good i will angry him le so childish nia me.sorry ah since i do many thing hurt u but i always say sorry to him but afterthat i still do tat to him bad...now i really hope he can happy always and don feel zi bei le but i think he will do tat hehe

给我几首歌的时间

haha create a blog oso not bad when moody all thing can write in here ,my fren tell me oso good oso haha .Quite sad now oh cuz 刚刚失恋了but good oso will not hurt ppl again and can let him become more happy will not always face to me only angry and sad . my fren say rite love 1 ppl not must together him de see him xing fu me oso will happy de hahaha. But sometime i still will so miss him cuz together with him i really feel happy and comfortable haha. but i really hurt him so much le wan bu cang oso cant le too late d .why people do wrong le juz noe regret 1 de so stupid nia haiz..... no cant say tat ,only me stupid dono how to think and not mature nia. i still remember first time we break tat me really cant accept it i always ask why leh then i think i really so bad le always juz noe fa pi qi nia and doesn't guan xin him haiz too bad me. but after 1 month we together back i really so happy oh cuz yuan lai he still love me de then tat time i tell myself i muz appreciate our relationship and do not easy fa pi qi le . but after this i still do tat to him and always make him sad and angry le. he always give me all his good thing for me nad always chong me but wat i do to him ah juz noe make him sad. so that he cant together with me le cuz he really so tired face to me le . i really so regret why since i treat u so bad i do tat to u already many time le since i promise u do tat but i oso din do tat always make u disappointed and sad im so sorry ah why i always like tat de pei pei u really so stupid gal and so bad why u always do thing make urself regret 1 ah stupid stupid!!! now u regret oso no use le no chance anymore. but now he don 1 me right oso in future he still can find 1 girl better than me so many time and will give him happy always. sorry i love u hahaha now me muz tabah cant always sad leh i still nit time and 给我几首歌的时间....